It’s been a crazy week and a half working 12–16 hour days. My family has been so supportive and I and so grateful to the Lord for them. Tonight my work team gave me the night off to attend Sophie’s Christmas Choir Concert and again, I am grateful. On Friday Prim fell at the roller skating rink and got a hairline fracture in her right elbow and her delayed Birthday Party was Sunday. Just a comedy of situations that all add up to “life”. Something again, I am eternally grateful to my Father in Heaven for.
Luke 22:61 [AMP]
And the Lord turned and looked at Peter. And Peter recalled the Lord’s words, how He had told him, Before the cock crows today, you will deny Me thrice.
This whole scene has always haunted me. After the third time Peter denied Jesus and the rooster crowed, being led to trial, Jesus turns to see Peter and Peter is reminded of what the Lord would tell him he would do…and he ran off bitterly weeping in his self loathing and grief.
I want to live in a way that when Jesus returns in the sky, that He catches my eye and mine is not one of self-loathing for the situation I am ( a corrupt state of heart) but one of absolute joy and gratefulness that even while I was in my sin, He died for me because the joy that He saw before Him (with me in Heaven), He bore the cross and separation from the Father so that I would never have to.